I read over and over--and I really do believe it's true--that one of the most important parts of a witch's practice is learning to make meditation and visualization a regular part of their day. I KNOW this...I BELIEVE this...so why, Oh WHY,. is this so hard for me to do? I mean, ya, I get busy. I have a 9 year old son and husband. I have a job. I have a home to take care of. I am sure if I really wanted to I could sit down and make a big long list of all the reasons why I have not made these things a priority in my life--I am sure we all could. The problem with this is--I KNOW I could find the time somewhere. I know there are times when my butt is sitting at this computer that I could be doing other things. So really all my excuses could fall by the wayside. In other words--they don't hold water. They just don't.
You see. I actually know why I have failed in this area of my practice. The truth? You want the honest to goodness truth? I SUCK at it--that's why. Sitting there...quietly...doing nothing...It. Is. So.Hard.
I cannot get into the zone, ya know. I am no where near the zone. Wherever the zone is.
The whole time I am doing it---trying to do it---my mind keeps telling me that I am doing it all wrong. I am not sitting right. I am not laying down right. I am not thinking right. I am not quieting my mind right.
And then, all the stuff I should be doing start flashing through my mind. I hear this voice in my head. It is telling me that there are dishes in the sink...the bathroom needs to be cleaned...that laundry pile ain't getting any smaller. I really hate that voice. But, it's there. And it will NOT shut up. So, finally after a few minutes, I get flustered and get up to go do what the voice was telling me to do.
I am not giving up, though. I am going to make a commitment to really start working on it. And if anyone has any advice to help me battle that voice I would surely appreciate it.
Hope you are all doing well. Be blessed....and be a blessing.
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